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Well, I, for one, do not hold grudges, its too hard on my blood pressure.
I think it is common online to be misunderstood. It is worse when the audience is international and there is a language barrier. That is the situation here a lot of the time.
I tend to do the knee jerk reaction first then rethink it later. I am working on that.
I would implore you to give it another chance. Kick back awhile and just watch and see if you can get some info in a passive way. I don't think anyone here really holds a grudge or will blacklist you for any early communication misunderstandings.
I believe you just happened on the board at a time of high stress levels with lots of new folks with lots of unresearched questions. Some of us are concerned with this type stuff diluting the quality of this resource.
Bottom line here is that we truly do want to help people, especially people with a desire to create their own power.
Some of our finest members got off on the wrong foot and got an arse chewing in the beginning of their membership here. By me. A few are now what I consider good, close online friends. A lot like a family, really. We argue and we fight and we can get mean but it usually blows over as fast as it erupted. We have banished or otherwise run off troublesome users over the years but it usually is only for gross misconduct. You certainly don't fit that category.
I honestly urge you to hang around and soak up some of the great knowledge here. Give it another try, at least in a passive role.
Anyone truly interested in learning should be welcome here and I think in general they are. We just expect folks to at least attempt to enlighten themselves as a preliminary step to posting here. Similar to prerequisites in college coursework.
Anyway think it over and reply if you want me to anonymize your account.
Not sure of the repercussions of killing your posts because replies and / or comments will be killed also and those belong to others.
Let me know.
Cheers.
TomW